Act 1. Magician: Almost There

7th January, 2011

I had love him for almost 5 months. It was sucks. I just wanted to focus on my studying. But in the end, I ended up loving him without being with him. That was heartbreaking.

So in the end, I TOLD him about my feelings through him. Well, I just wanna made this feelings disappeared.
He replied like this, "To be honest with you Lyd, I loved someone before I started studying here and after I started studying here. But, my dad doesn't allow me to date, and I found that at some point, he was right. I'm sorry that I broke your heart. and I'm glad and always be your best friend."

Even though that hurt my feelings little. I was glad that my feelings about him had gone. But still,...


9th January, 2011
But still, I didn't want to see him. I didn't want to be sad. I just wanted to be a blind girl to him.


Day by day, he was still close to me. Even until now. It was this close *tini tiny close* to winning. But, it was useless. I still love him. :(

I just remembered about a magician who was wrapped by "karung goni" and belts. She was almost there, there to released herself for reaching a greater freedom. But, it was a failure.

My inspirations about this design are:
- a Magician trick with "karung goni" and belts
- my feelings
- the almost-broken-belt came from the almost-broken-belt that I found in the school yard during "Kerja Bakti"