花 (Hana) - Spring in Beijing

15-23rd of Apr, I went to Beijing to visit my sist.

Things that caught my eyes are the flowers. They are blooming everywhere. The best part was, there were beautiful flowers with strong and soft colors everywhere. One day I saw a tree that had the same structure as Pohon Beringin. So, I made this design. :)

Also same with my heart, blooming everywhere because my big sist. Miss you sist! Thank you for showing the view!

Merapi: Recovery

We may have forgotten what happened to Merapi and its surroundings. They may have gotten stronger now. They may have recovered.

The flowers represents the "spring" feeling of Yogya (getting better) ;and for the golds, it represents the economical situation there which is getting back to normal.

I use batik because it represents Yogya, hhe..

Pray for INA, Pray for the world!!

Credits: Dion Oktavianus. thankyou so much for ur pics after the explosion. it inspired me a lot!! :)

Final act. Clown: The Confession of a Teenage Clown

Before the closing, let us give the audiences some laughs, shall we? *I always wanna say that

To be honest, I can be little bit (actually more crazy) sometimes. I have crazy thoughts sometimes, especially if I'm with my friends. :)
In this world, why so serious? Laugh out Loud ~ Just enjoy the colors and the love of your life especially if you guys are teenagers. Be yourselves!

inspiration:
- my inner craziness
- hair manual curler *I don't know what it's called XD

Act 4. Acrobatic (?): Flying Gracefully

I've seen this acrobatic shows for so many times. The performers seemed like they were flying. They were very graceful but yet have a strong power. The blue color was inspired by the lighting system during the show. :)

Act 3. Mime: The Mind of an Amateur Mime

Long time ago, when I was probably 9 or 10 years old, I watched "Dexter's Laboratory" which was aired in Cartoon Network and I saw DiDi, Dex's big sist, trying to be a mime by asking Dex "Am I inside or outside the box?" and showing her hand movement just like she was inside the box. And yes people, this experience is my inspiration

Act 2. Ballerina: Ambitious to Reach the Top = Frustration

I describe myself as an ambitious person. I always try my best to reach the top and win even though I won't get or even have the 1st place price. But, that's not always a good thing. It's frustrating. The most frustrating thing is that I can't stop doing things too serious. I almost couldn't enjoy my life. My life because my ambition is complicated.

Just like this design. It's complicated, just like a fan, never flat. Once it goes down, it always goes up again, never care what happen, always have thoughts that are unnecessary to be think of and makes things worse (ex: stress). The red represents the frustrating feelings that I have. The top of the skirt is reaching for the top.

This feeling reminds me of "Black Swan". Natalie Portman's role as a very ambitious ballerina wants to get the role of the white swan. Because of her ambitious attitude, she turns herself into a black swan.
So that is why I made this feeling of mine as a ballerina, just like Natalie's role.

Inspiration:
- my feeling
- Black Swan (movie)
- for the skirt, is this (Fan Palm)

Act 1. Magician: Almost There

7th January, 2011

I had love him for almost 5 months. It was sucks. I just wanted to focus on my studying. But in the end, I ended up loving him without being with him. That was heartbreaking.

So in the end, I TOLD him about my feelings through him. Well, I just wanna made this feelings disappeared.
He replied like this, "To be honest with you Lyd, I loved someone before I started studying here and after I started studying here. But, my dad doesn't allow me to date, and I found that at some point, he was right. I'm sorry that I broke your heart. and I'm glad and always be your best friend."

Even though that hurt my feelings little. I was glad that my feelings about him had gone. But still,...


9th January, 2011
But still, I didn't want to see him. I didn't want to be sad. I just wanted to be a blind girl to him.


Day by day, he was still close to me. Even until now. It was this close *tini tiny close* to winning. But, it was useless. I still love him. :(

I just remembered about a magician who was wrapped by "karung goni" and belts. She was almost there, there to released herself for reaching a greater freedom. But, it was a failure.

My inspirations about this design are:
- a Magician trick with "karung goni" and belts
- my feelings
- the almost-broken-belt came from the almost-broken-belt that I found in the school yard during "Kerja Bakti"